I can sense and feel in the spirit that God is on the mission of renewing and restoring life and healing to our hearts in this season because he has surely been working on mine. In fact, there has been the confirmation of that sense by way of my fellow brothers and sisters in ministry (Pastors Toure’ and Sarah Roberts, Pastor Michael Todd, and Pastors Travis and Jackie Greene) preaching and leading a series of sermons touching on the subject of forgiveness and the importance in it.
Before my fellowship and participation in the study and worship with my fellow siblings in ministry, I had already began a process of surrendering my heart and healing to the sovereign and capable hands of our Creator God. The very painful experience that led me to my place of surrender was one that had terrified me as well as drained me to a point and place that I knew I never wanted to return. This painful experience was one that I knew would require me to try my best to forget but I also had a lot I would need to forgive my offender for. So one day I got on my knees and gave my heart, heaviness, and the heaviest tears I had ever cried to God. The next day I felt lighter but with God’s help and revelation, I learned that of all the people I needed to forgive… It was my own self that I needed to forgive the most.
After streaming a panel discussion hosted and led by Pastors Travis and Jackie Greene, I had sat with myself and had to ask the hard question “How do I forgive myself practically from the things that I am still holding myself hostage to?” I remembered a very important token of wisdom shared in the discussion on detaching the two people. Meaning the person I was when I made certain unhealthy decisions was not who I am today. Because I am not who I was then, It is very important that I not marry myself to the decisions I made when I did not know who I really was. From this panel discussion, I also learned to reframe my fears because when I live to avoid failure, I am not living free at all.
I also tuned into the live and rebroadcasted series of sermons “Forgiveness University” by Pastor Michael Todd that further blew my mind and helped me understand the importance of unleashing my unforgiveness. Not only did Pastor Mike powerfully and divinely preach this series but he also gave several key points and reasons on why forgiveness was so critical to our future. The two major points I took from the series were: 1. Unforgiveness always limits your future (Matthew 6: 14-15). 2. Unforgiveness contaminates you on the inside and seeps outward.
Taking this lesson even deeper and further, I would like to share the revelation given to me by The Holy Spirit on December 10, 2020 as I sat in my office at work in meditation and worship with the Lord. Thus said the Lord’s Holy Spirit “Many and much of our/your mental prisons and traumas are built by the continual counting up of offenses happened to us/you. Doing this ushers us to a place of harboring unforgiveness.” In this great revelation and lesson learned and confirmed by The Holy Spirit, I now understand that forgiveness is not about keeping score but losing count. The scripture Matthew 18:21-22 says and also backs up this lesson and truth. “21 Then Peter came to him and asked “ Lord, how often must I forgive someone who sins against me? Seven times? 22 “No, not seven times,” Jesus replied, “but seventy times seven!”
I need you to think about that for a moment. While your mom, dad, siblings, children, friends, partner etc. may have said and done so much to you that may have caused you scars to the place and point where you want to keep count of their offenses… think about the energy used and the time it takes for you to keep count of those negative events. Going a step further… think of all the offenses you’ve made and caused… Would you want God to add them up and keep count of them? Right, I thought so. Instead, you would rather bask in his grace, mercy, love, kindness, and forgiveness expressed and poured out to you. In fact the Bible leaves us the evidence and expression of God’s grace and forgiveness towards us. If you open the book and search the pages and history of characters and events, you will see how several imperfect people were able to still be used and blessed by God by way of His great love and forgiveness of our sins and transgressions. Take Micah 7:18-19 for example which says “Who is a God like you, pardoning iniquity and passing over transgression for the remnant of His inheritance? He does not retain his anger forever, because He delights in steadfast love. He will again have compassion on us; he will tread our iniquities underfoot. You will cast all our sins into the depths of the sea (also referenced as the sea of forgetfulness)”.
The purpose in sharing this life lesson and truth with you all is in my heart’s compelling compassion in wanting to see my brothers and sisters walk in complete freedom and purpose. In order for us to all bask in and enjoy this great life and blessing is to unleash our unforgiveness so that we can release ourselves, our futures and the future generations to come after us to a future without limits and bounds. God wants us to learn the lessons we will face but His objective is not that we remain stuck in the lesson but that we move on and forward. Forgive all those that you need to and most definitely forgive yourself. Forgiveness is not about what they deserve but what God desires.
May our lessons be plenty and our journeys be joyous and beautiful!
God bless 😘