The Portal to Your Past: It Must Be Blocked

In life we all have aims, goals, plans and our hearts greatest desires. Both in and from life, we begin life not only by breathing but in learning. Learning is key and essential to us growing and getting to our purpose. Our purpose is in what and who God created us to be and what He has destined us to do. What happens when we have gotten past lessons or gone through courses that we somehow wind up facing again? What do you do? Do you reflect on your past course and the lesson learned out of it or do you fail the very course you once got through? What happens when it is not a something you've gotten through from your past but rather you find yourself crosses paths with someone you once loved and valued trying to make way into your future?


When we enter life and this world, our survival and growth is solely based off of what is being fed to us (by our parents). While we are infants and dependent on our parents, we become stronger physically and cognitively because of the nourishment we receive. After awhile, we begin to learn how to feed ourselves amidst us still being dependent on others for our sustenance. Down the road as we journey to independence, self-expression, and reliance, we become curious and that curiosity teaches us a lesson whether pleasant or painful. Take the hard-headed yet curious child whose mother and father told them to not put their hands on the hot stove yet the child touched it anyway and learned by the burn that their parents were trying to prevent harm from happening to them.


Even as we grow older and become adolescents and adults, there is always that curiosity and free-will that we lean on rather that discernment and for us believers... trusting in and following God's will. Personally, I have several stories that I could share with you all as well as have several lessons I have learned throughout my lifetime which is the sole purpose and mission of this blog. I do not get up day in and out or week in and out only speaking from the air and into the air. I write and publish lessons and convictions God places on my heart to share with others knowing that there is power in our testimonies.


Speaking of God and the power of testimony, I would like to share with you all that spiritually God has given me two words to center my life and actions around and He has continued to put two scriptures before me nearly day in and day out for many months now. The two words are "Deeper" and "Anchored". The two scriptures are Romans 8:28 NLT"And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to His purpose for them" and Proverbs 4:23 NLT "Guard your heart above all else, for it determines the course of your life." You may wonder why I am sharing something with you all that is so personal to me or you may wonder how it is that my revelation, calling and conviction plays any role or effect in your life so let me share a very intimate and sacred truth with you...


A couple of years back both before and after I lost my brother, I was enduring an enormous amount of anxiety, stress, and was just downright weary. I felt like no matter what I did or how much I was serving God... the storms of life kept sweeping me up. After losing my brother, it felt as if I had surrendered to the storm but not God and I felt lost and was in a very sunken place. And it was in that sunken place that I found myself in sin with someone from my past. It was almost like he was a security blanket or bandage for my wounds. In my flesh and from the sin, I allowed myself to feel safe and secure with him even though I could see spiritually and emotionally that he was not and would never be the kind of man I could have destiny with after all I was sinning right? So how dare I assume that God would bless my mess just because I felt good lying in it. Not only was I lying deep in my sinful desires for that guy but I had began to love him in a way I needed to love only God. It was a short time afterwards that God began to convict and comfort me by reaffirming me of my future and His intentions for me. It took God himself to tell me "My daughter, I have great things for you but those great things lie ahead and will never be rooted in sin but rather righteousness. I will never let your best be in what you left behind or lost but in what lies ahead and before you!" And so my soul work began and so did the rehabilitation and surrender of my heart to God. It was a war within my mind and heart yet I could hear God's Holy Spirit say "Deeper Lateesa!".


A funny thing is that I had been told all my life that I was very deep. Many of the guys I have dated in my past would always say to me "You do know that you can speak to me in Earth tone and bring it down right? Because you are a bit too deep and high." Now looking back not to my past but to the reflection of who I was and who I am... I understand why God has called me to go deeper and to be anchored. It is because I have often times shrunk back from my calling and purpose of being a person of depth out of the comforts of reasoning or compromising with man. I am called to go deeper and be anchored because of the drifting and swaying I had endured and I believe that many of you all are being called to go deeper and be anchored in God as well. He wants us to be in Him and to remain in the depths of His love and power but we will never understand that truth allowing our past or people from our past to come into a life of now where God has healed and redeemed us. Our past serves as a resource of seeing our growth. It is not a place to reside or rest.


Many past loves, old flings or old friends may resurface and try to regain access to you and your life. I in no means are not urging you all to relive or reflect on the pain endured from your past and continue to harbor unforgiveness or resentment from the things and people from your past. I would simply like to offer you a higher and righteous perspective of you remembering that it is important to not marry yourself to who you once were. Most people from your past do not see the value and virtue in who you are now. They will recall and often try to get you to reminisce on what used to be. Stay focused on who you are now and all that you aim to overcome and become. God redeemed you, delivered you, healed you and grew you up from the old and outdated version of you so remember that when the portal to your past tries to open that you have the power to close it. In fact, you have the power to block it. 2 Corinthians 5:17 says "Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come. The old has gone, the new is here!"


Now ask yourself... "Do you really want to hear something old? Or are you ready for something new? As for me... I and my past hold no new relations or new revelations. That is why the portal to my past is Blocked and like my sister Porsha says "I am staying covered under the blood and staying in!"


If you continue to do what you've always done, You will be where you've always been- Pastor Toure` Roberts


We cannot expect new miracles with old mindsets- Pastor Steven Furtick


May our lessons be plenty and our journey's be joyous and beautiful!

God bless 😘