A Long Time's Wait

It has been months since I have published a blog or even been active on social media and that has all been in purpose and for a purpose. Sometimes we have to quiet our minds and souls and find rest and solitude away from the noisy and ever busy world.

A little after my 35th birthday, my spirit determined that I needed to rest but it wasn't so much a physical rest but more a spiritual rest and so I began to rest at the feet of the Lord in meditation and worship. The alone time that I was having with Holy Spirit was so beautiful and filling that I wanted nothing and no one to come in between that time and space between He and I. I was on a spiritual high and it was one that I knew warfare and battle would come knocking on my door soon to try and end or bring down. I was not wrong but God's angelic hosts and Holy Spirit was with me and I knew that as long as I had the Lord and His army... I had victory.

In this resting, warring, and strengthening period... I have learned a lot and I am still learning. I have learned more about myself, more about my gifts, more about Holy Spirit, more about people and more about life here on Earth as it pertains to my children and my future. While I would love to share much of the details of my schooling and understanding... it is all very personal and sacred. What I can share though is the power in waiting on the Lord for the things of the will of God as it pertains to your heart's desires. Too often we take God's grace and mercy for granted as well as us take our own lives for granted when making rash decisions without calculating the cost and risk of taking them.

If we are honest with ourselves, we often want what we want when we want it and think nothing about whether or not our attainment of those things would come at a consequence or deficit to us. As a believer and truster in God's word, I have learned that there is a time and season for everything including my wants and needs. Personally, I am guilty of making terribly rash decisions in my past out of ignorance as well as not seeking God beforehand. Many of those decisions and actions cost me pain and suffering and left me in the "development lab" as I call it. Inside the development lab is where God continues to refine and condition us. It is in that very lab that He sees just how impatient and immature we are in the matters of heaven and His blessings.

Most of us dislike hearing the word wait and instantly cringe at the sound of someone telling you to wait but there are such numerous and great examples in scripture left to encourage and remind us of the importance of waiting on God and His timing for us. Isaiah 40:31 reminds us "But those that wait on the Lord shall renew their strength. They shall mount up with wings like eagles, they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint." Psalm 27:13-14 says "I would have lost heart unless I had believed that I would see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. Wait on the Lord; Be of good courage and He shall strengthen your heart; Wait, I say on the Lord!" These same scriptures are scriptures that I know in and by heart yet have not always applied them to my daily life. A little over a week ago, I kept hearing the phrase "Hold On" with my spiritual ears. It was to no surprise that I had heard them be spoken to my heart because I knew why the Lord was speaking them to me but I also knew and understand that the phrase "Hold on" has the same meaning as "Wait" and "Be patient".

Waiting requires character... Waiting requires trust... Waiting requires obedience and discipline... Waiting requires patience, the very thing that is a virtue yet is something many of us selectively have if we even have it at all. Waiting is the very thing that the Lord is ordering me to do. He knows and understands my heart and its full desires and He desires to fulfill them when and only when I have reached my point of proper positioning with Him as well as when I have reached the maturation stage that is required for such blessings.

With all that goes on around us and all that we witness... it is extremely easy to jump in the pool of the general population and follow the trends of our culture and society. As for me, I would rather jump in the development lab with God and allow Him to build and refine me for purpose sake than for me to jump in with the world's trend and lose my spiritual position of being a Kingdom builder and heir to God's throne. Trust me when I say that I know and I understand that waiting gets tiresome and can sometimes be discouraging but I want to remind you that as long as you're breathing... You can still reap a harvest of blessings as well as see the promises of God come to past in your life. Those dreams that you cannot shake and get away from yet you are so passionate about seeing fruition to... God planted them inside of you and if He planted them there it means He has full intent on watering and growing them. That great desire that you have to be a wife/husband or that mother/father... God gave to you and He would not give you such a desire simply to not fill it. The fulfillment may not be as you would will it but as He divinely orchestrates it to be.

I leave with you Philippians 1:6 AMP "I am convinced and confident of this very thing, that He who has begun a good work in you will [continue to] perfect and complete it until the day of Christ Jesus [the time of His return]."


Abba, Father, all things, all time, and all people are in your hands. You Father have created us and created good and godly desires within us that only you can bring to pass for your will sake and for our purpose sake. In this world and here on this Earth, there is much seen and much to be desired with the natural eyes but we need your help Father to turn us away from the desires of our natural eyes to see with our spiritual eyes what you would have us to see, seek and fulfill for Heaven and your name's sake. Help us Father through your ever present Holy Spirit to turn our ears away from the world and to tune them to the frequency of hearing you and your commands for us. Strengthen and refine us to move only in you and your will for our lives. Teach us how to be patient and grant us the faith needed to trust in your will and your timing for us. We may have been waiting for 2 years, 20 years, 40 years or more but with you and in you the wait is made possible and the promise of your wait is worth the time and faith of our waiting. All of life, All of Heaven, and All blessings are in your hands. Help us Father to not only seek your hands for the blessings of you but to seek your presence for the fullness of you. Without you Abba, we are nothing and and apart from Christ we can do nothing and bear no fruit or witness so we give our hearts to you and we ask that you take ownership and residence of our hearts. You be lifted, be magnified, and be glorified in us and in the Earth. This we pray in your holy name and in the name of your precious son, Christ Jesus... Amen

May our lessons be plenty and our journeys be joyous and beautiful!

God bless 😘